A Step Back

My life. is crazy. hectic. and 99%...90% insane.

My husband, God love him, works long hours is some other country and I miss him so much it hurts sometimes.... most of the time. I can't wait until he is able to come back home. But I am so thankful that he is wonderful and does what he does because he loves us. I'm proud of you, babe.

Some days feel like pulling my hair out. Some days I want to sit on the floor and cry. Some days I feel awesome to have made it through the day and some days just look around at the end of the day and smile because 'yes, I did get it all done today' and it. is. good.

Life is a juggling act right now. I know I can fit everything in... I just have to figure out when to catch and when to toss.

Lately, I've felt myself coming back to using food as my comfort place. I know I need to quit it. I know I need to stop. ....but I don't. Why? I don't know. stressed is dessert spelled backwards... but even that isn't an excuse because let's be honest, when I'm having one of my 'munchy hungry all day long days'... I'd feel like I'd eat my shoe if you put a little salt on it.... :/.

I've been still drinking my protein shake every morning.... and praise the heavens! I found an amazing milk free (and soy free) vegan protein mix that is to die for delicious! I'm in love :) message me if you care for details. Its something I've struggled w for years so excuse me for being over the moon excited about it!!! :) I also am loving my juicer. That thing takes a lot of veggies but its worth it. I lover how I feel after I drink one of the green goddess mixes. (Look it up) I can almost hear my cells applauding...... can you tell its getting late and I'm getting a little goofy?? ..... moving on. I'm setting goals for myself that aren't all 'getting skinny' related and more HEALTH focused. So far I've come up with.... -Get 8 hours of sleep every night. -Set an alarm to wake up before the kids wake up. -Take a few morning minutes for quiet time and reflection -Work towards a goal of a quiet and simple soul And that's it. Weight loss goals are still in the front of my mind but I'm finding it so hard to keep from getting discouraged when I focus on ONLY on weight loss numbers and it doesn't happen. I'm stepping back to take a broader look and changing other parts of myself too. Hope you have a great week! -- much love!