Sunday, February 12, 2012

OCD Major Mom Accomplishment

What am I averaging right now?... one blog post a month? .... Thats pretty sad. I'm going to do better. I need this time to release my thoughts and create concrete goals for myself, not just ones in my mind that I quickly forget about, because I'm not held accountable.

It was a rare occasion last night. Both kids went to sleep and I still had energy left to get things done around the house and time to do things for me. I poured a glass of wine and sat down to my desk. I've been feeling a little itch to get more organized for a while now, but it requires some prep time. So, last night I did it. I organized 2 schedules for Emma Kate. One for days she is at home with me, and another for days where she has school. They're not set in stone yet. I still need to test them out to make sure the timing is right, but its a good start. She is ridiculously OCD, just like me. Unstructured chaos will be the death of both of us one day...

Aside from creating structure in our daily routines, I thought about my goals for each week. I'm good at keeping the house straight and semi uncluttered (ok ok... some days I am). I want to work in scheduled days for laundry, cleaning the bathrooms, dusting, vacuuming the bedrooms, changing bed sheets etc. etc. I hate to admit how behind on that stuff I am.... I never have time to do it all at once, so it gets pushed back further and further.... I think I've figured out a way to kind of rotate and focus on one area each day so everything gets done at least once a week. I know stuff will come up and having a perfectly clean house isn't the most important part of my life by any means, but if I'm 70% successful at least I'll be trying to give it a good shot!

And I'll admit it... when it comes to baths, its a total fail in parenting over here. My kids don't get "dirty" and when everyone is tired in the evenings, I don't feel like fighting it... its just not pretty... so I kinda of skip out on it most times. Go ahead and judge. I don't care. With the new schedule, 3 times a week. Both kids. I also have scheduled time for Emma Kate to work on "chores" such as making her bed, cleaning up the playroom/toys, feeding her fish (Princess Daisy) and brushing her teeth. We're going to have time to read each night before bed and snuggle too.

I decided to become one of those crazy monthly meal planning moms. And I'm starting to love it. Just dinners for right now for at least a week in advance. I don't know why I put it off until now... I thought it would be a pain, but its beautiful to not be looking through the pantry at 4:45pm and saying.... "I guess this will work..." Now I can feel good about having healthy dinners planned for my family and know I have the items on hand to make them.

My goal was also to schedule time to work out.... ugh. yes, even though I hate it right now, I made myself do it. no excuses. I didn't lose any weight last month. I actually gained a few because I let my guard down more than a few times :( I wasn't really trying to lose weight. I ate way too many things that should be occasional treats, not random eats without reason. I don't want to just let time pass by like that again. I didn't lose control and go crazy. I could have done worse, but I didn't exactly keep control either... if that makes sense. So diet alone right now isn't cutting it. I need to exercise too. Maybe it'll keep me in line... I mean, I'm not going to get all icky and sweaty just to blow it on a few oreos. (which I may or may not have had for dinner last night....) :/

So yes, scheduling is going to make a difference in our house for everyone. And I'm quite proud of myself at this accomplishment. Honey... I hope you're ready for this when you get back home lol Maybe by then I'll have everything running smoothly and it'll be a good transition.

All that aside, I've been doing a lot of thinking about the kind of skinny person I want to be. I realized that I don't want to be a skinny person, I want to be a strong person. I don't want to be a certain size or number... I want to be fit, whatever that number may be. I want to see muscles, earned by working hard on my body. I want to see toned legs that hold up a beautiful woman/wife/mother and strong arms that hold the things that are most important in her life. I want to see a heart bursting with love for Jesus and for her family. Her eyes to be full of kindness that see how blessed she really is. And a desire to be the best woman she can be so her children grow up having a good example to follow. I want to be that woman.

I know I can't go for the rest of my life without a piece of cake, but I know that I can go without one for today... and thats how I'm going to start looking at things...

One day at a time.
Because anything that I can't go one day without thinking about, is worth fighting for.

1 comment:

  1. Very inspirational! Keep at it woman! I am right there with u! Its a struggle but its worth the fight!

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