First, I had a yummy dinner tonight.
Salad with chicken and grape tomatoes, a few pine nuts and spices. Doesn't that look delicious? :) Quite satisfying too. I have to confess though.... I need advice. I'm getting rather bored with my proteins. (totally not weight related but) I have bad TMJ issues and arthritis in my jaw. My jaw gets fatigued and sore when eating tougher foods. So, for the past several years, no gum, no steak :( or pork chops... chicken and ground turkey seem to be ok for now... but I'm almost to the point where I don't even want those anymore. Not because of the jaw pain but because I've lost my taste for them.
I could go without meat most of the time, but I struggle to find different food substitutions for protein at meal time. Eggs are good, but theres only so many eggs a person can take... soy, I'm not comfortable with the way some food companies try to pass off frankien-soy products off as the real thing. I still eat soy, I just don't depend on it as my main source of protein in a meal. I know I am sounding super difficult and stubborn to deal with. I'm kind of feeling burnt out, I guess.... and then I hate myself for feeling that way because I'm no where near where I want to be with my weight loss goals and its too early to get burnt out! Its a vicious cycle, I tell you!
I can't even tell you what it is I'm really looking for... just some more ideas on how to eat other proteins that I'm not totally sick of?? I'm diabetic, proteins to balance out carbs (even low glycemic carbs) is important.
I have been doing a protein shake every morning for breakfast. I enjoy it... And after almost 2 months of using the blender everyday, my kids are finally starting to not run around crazy scared for the 30 seconds it takes me to blend it together. (I won't lie... I know its bad, but I kind of get a kick out of most every time lol) and when I'm home it is a convenient meal at other times of the day but I don't feel like I want to depend on it all the time, you know?
Another reason for my funk tonight is a documentary I watched on netflix today while my son napped in my lap. Hungry for Change. You can see the first 20 minutes online or its free on instant watch if you have netflix. I'm warning you though.... Its worth watching, but I was pretty upset by the end of it.
I'm a designer. Its in my blood to make things appealing to the eye. My marketing side knows all the tricks to make (insert whatever product/person here) look like a better decision than its competition. And yet I can't believe how much I've been fooled into thinking the FDA had any good intentions at all. And how many people are fooled int thinking they're making the right decision when all they are doing is making the companies more money. The documentary is about the way our food has so drastically changed over the last century. The lab chemicals, the marketing trickery to make you buy certain brands and become addicted to them so you keep buying them. Its an offense equal to those of cigarette companies.............
In the back of my head I knew OF this, but had never seen it all compiled together in one place.
Sorry.......... I will quit my rant and let you decide for yourself if you want to know it all or not. I can tell you that as of right now... I'm a little puzzled. If you decide to watch it, or have seen it before... I'd love to know your opinion and thoughts on it.
I still know what is healthy and none of the facts have really changed.... It just astounds me how much of the grocery store is eliminated. I already only shopped about 20% of the store. Now I'm left with desiring even less than that? and hardly any idea what to eat.
I did my grocery shopping this afternoon (bad timing lol) and walked out of the store with basically an assortment of veggies (fresh and frozen) and some apples, and the kid's favorite organic chicken nuggets and juice. I have no idea what I'm cooking this week. Its probably going to be a weird week where I keep staring at my fridge with food in it and not knowing what to do with it. We'll see what happens.
Also in a bit of an impulse moment, I bought a juicer that was on sale from amazon. I'm hoping it will help get more nutrients in my diet. Anyone else juice? I'd just like to add it in to my already healthy diet... not use it for the sole source of nutrition.
I hope your week is going well. Here its hit or miss and I truly miss having my husband around all the time. His presence helps me quiet the constant racing thoughts in my head.
Ooh! speaking of.... look what I picked up from the grocery store today! (also impulse... though I love tea)
have a good night! And please let me know if you have any input, ideas or comments... I appreciate every one of them greatly and love hearing I'm not alone in this fight to be a little less mommy...
