Last week, I finally did it. I can say that I have lost a total of 150 pounds. Thats like 1.5 Olsen twins, I'm pretty sure... or maybe both of them? Something like that. One hundred and fifty pounds!
Its been 11 years since I have been diagnosed with cushings disease and 10.5 years since I had the surgery to remove the petuitary tumor that caused all this mess in the first place. Its been a long road. At my heaviest weight while dealing with the Cushing's Disease and aftermath of hormone issues I was somewhere around 400 pounds. Probably a bit more I think. I'm not sure. At that point it was so upsetting and depressing that I quit looking. I didn't want know the numbers.
When you weigh close to 400 pounds, being 250 pounds seems like some sparkly unicorn fantasy. Well I'm still a chubby unicorn who would like to lose some more, but I will strut my stuff anyways.
I kind of thought it would never come. Losing 100 pounds was by no means easy but my weight kind of stalled there for a really long time. I knew I didn't want to be done, but I was busy with babies and family and putting yourself fist doesn't come easy when you're a young mom (or for any other parent really). Goodness knows I've had days where I just resigned to settling on my weight, thinking that miles ahead of where I used to be but not yet where I want to be was just going to have to be good enough.
But it isn't good enough. It never has been. A weight loss journey looks more like a hike through the alps than it does a path through a hilly meadow. Some periods are harder and other times are a little easier. Sometimes you pitch a tent, set up camp and live in a cave for a while.... or you just sit on the edge of a cliff and wonder what would happen if you decided to jump off the stupid mountain completely and instead just have a good cry.
But today, I stand up tall and proud. Not finished with my mountains yet, but I have more behind me than what lays ahead of me and thats a good feeling. However long its going to take, I plan on marching through it.
This little gem is my gift to myself for making it this far and not giving up. (Its really a $30 ring from overstock, please don't come rob me) I now wear it every day and I'm in L-O-V-E with it. The sparkles, the glitter, the rainbow colors.... yep, its my own reminder that I am and always will be that sparkly unicorn. :)
So proud of my baby girl! You are an amazing woman in EVERY way - physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I doubt you will ever know the impact you have had on so many people this side of Heaven. Your sparkle will always shine a light in our hearts! I love you!! Mom
ReplyDeleteCongratulations! (a little bit late, sorry!) I am so happy for you. It is such a hard, long, journey to get back to "normal".
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